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I hate having feelings for a guy...especially when he's a friend.

Sure, the time we spend together talking and having fun is enjoyable, and imagining what it might be like to be together makes me smile more often than not.

But when I remember that he's my friend...when I try to tell myself that it wouldn't work, and that we won't ever be together, won't be more than friends...When I try to be realistic...it really hurts.

Why do I do this to myself? This isn't the first time I've fallen for a guy who was my friend. And I don't want to tell him, because it will just end up the same way it did with all my other guy friends I had crushes on. He won't feel the same way, and I just...I just don't want to put myself through that again. It's happened to me so many times already, and I just...I can't.

I'm just going to say I'm unlovable and quit, okay?
27th.Nov.2012 03:26Night of White
Raindrop ripple
Dear Heart,

Stop it. Just STOP IT.

Yeah, he's a nice guy. He's sweet, and he's probably the coolest guy I've gotten the pleasure of knowing in a while. But I barely know him. All the time we've talked is not enough for me to actually feel this way about him.

And it just wouldn't work. This cannot work. There is no way anything good can come from this. Because, even if things were different...I doubt he'd be interested in me, anyway.

Why do you have to do this, huh? It's just going to end up being painful, like it always is.

How many times do you have to break...before I throw you out completely? Because if this keeps happening, you'll be so broken that I can't use you anymore.

And I...I don't want that to happen.

Let's just put this to rest, and not think about this anymore.


You're going to make this difficult, aren't you?

Grrr....when are you going to get that I don't want to feel this way? Not with everything else going on! Why do you have to do this to me?

Why does this have to keep happening?
22nd.Nov.2012 15:49Night of White
HMC hug

Whether you celebrate Thanksgiving or not, I want you to know how thankful I am to have you in my life. Even if we don't talk as much anymore, you'll always be important to me. ^^

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28th.Oct.2012 18:35 - Icon meme
1. Reply to this post with "UNICORNS", and I will pick five of your icons.
2. Make a post (including the meme info) and talk about the icons I chose.
3. Other people can then comment to you and make their own posts.
4. This will create a never-ending cycle of icon glee.

Never-ending is right...I'm pretty sure I've done this a few times, lol. But it's all fun, so I'll probably keep doing them XD Anyway, these are the icons rose_of_pollux asked about:

This icon was made for me by netbug009, taken from the Pokemon Mystery Dungeon: Explorers of Sky - Beyond Time and Darkness special anime episode. In both the episode and the game, Grovyle is one of my top favorite characters, I really wanted an icon of him. This picture was of the best ones, taken from the saddest and my favorite scene in the episode. So Net was kind enough to make it an icon for me.

My icon of Chris Kratt from Wild Kratts, a show that I'm too old for but enjoy way too much anyway. I wanted to have an icon of Chris, my favorite brother, and I needed a face-palm icon for all those kind of moments. So I made this one because...well, why not? Heehee.

I have this weird little thing I do, where I try to have one icon from each of my fandoms - just one, unless the fandom itself has multiple versions of it (e.g., Sonic the Hedgehog, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles). And generally (but not always), I try to get an icon from my favorite character in that fandom. So one day, when I was looking for a good Ryou icon to add to my collection, I found the image from the very beginning of Yu-Gi-Oh, when everyone's souls had been trapped in cards. And...I don't know why, but Ryou's expression as the Change of Heart card here just really gets to me. So here it is. I generally use it for those moments when I'm kind of down about something...not sad, just...down. If that makes any sense.

When it comes to Once Upon a Time, I'll admit that I'm kind of eh about it. I like the idea, and I want to watch it, but I just never work up enough interest to go watch it. Not even record it on the DVR. The only episodes I have seen from beginning to end is the second episode, and the one where they introduce the idea of RumBelle. Seeing as how Beauty and the Beast is my favorite movie of all time, the idea of RumBelle, with Rumpelstiltskin taking the role of the Beast, kind of fascinated me. So I like having this icon that kind of compares the Disney movie with RumBelle.

Haha, not much to be said about this one. Luigi is my favorite from the Mario franchise, and the V-for-victory sign was just too good to pass up. I use this icon when I feel like I've accomplished something...not even necessarily big things. Just if I feel a sense of personal accomplishment, like if I've actually written for a story I've been meaning to update, or if I feel proud about something.
22nd.Oct.2012 21:24 - Just one of those days...

Today sucked.

I'm not sure what happened. I guess it started when I woke up late, which caused me to be late for work. Luckily my boss didn't really mind since she was late too, but I just ended up in a bad mood from there. And because I was late for work, I didn't have time to get food or anything, so I literally went for the whole day without anything to eat. It made me pretty irritable. So all the little mistakes at work which I can normally tolerate to some degree just pissed me off, and I got really impatient with the kid I was working with today (though luckily I didn't lose my temper with her or anything).

And for some reason I've just been moody and tired and weepy all day, and I just wanna curl up in a corner and not do anything.

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18th.Oct.2012 21:42 - Sup?

Hey everyone! I know it's been a while since I've posted anything, so I just wanted to leave a quick post so you all know I haven't died yet.

* Harvest Moon has officially taken over my life. In fact, it seems be an epidemic among my family. My sisters are all playing a Harvest Moon game of their own. And even my brother, who has been so bored with all our playing farming games, is thinking of getting the new Harvest Moon game when it comes out later this year. It's kind of crazy.

It's not my fault though...My older sister started it all. Blame her...I do.

* I got something for my birthday recently that might help me keep in touch with people. I'm testing it right now, and it seems to be working pretty well. We'll see how it goes in the coming days.

* After much debating, I actually got my own tumblr account. I haven't done much with it yet, and in all honesty, I'm not sure what to do with it. So far, it just seems to be random things. But anyone have any suggestions for cute/fun/fandomy things to follow?

I guess that's pretty much it. Yeah...my life is kind of boring...

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14th.Oct.2012 03:23 - TT^TT
No words
Kind of a random thing to post at 3 in the morning, especially after an extended period of inactivity. I'll try to do a real entry sometime, but I saw this recently and...oh man, right in the childhood feels...

14th.Sep.2012 15:01 - Kindred Spirits - Ch. 1
Mythbuster Reality
Title: Kindred Spirits
Chapter: 1
Fandom: Power Rangers (various seasons)
Character(s): Cameron Watanabe, Mia Watanabe, Kevin, Jayden Shiba, Antonio Garcia, Mike, Emily
Genre: Family, friendship, drama
Rating: K/G
Disclaimers: Power Rangers © Saban
Notes: Not once in my life did I ever think I would write a story for Power Rangers. I mean, I loved it when I was a kid, but I fell out of it after a certain point in Mighty Morphin, and I never watched any of the seasons after that. While Power Rangers still held a special place in my heart growing up, I never really was as interested in it as I had been as a kid.

Long story short, when I really got back into Power Rangers recently (thanks in part to a lot of different things), I fell into it hard. At the moment, I'm determined to watch all the seasons...someday...hopefully. It'll happen.

It's weird, though, because the three seasons I started out with in my quest to watch all of them were Mighty Morphin (just to refresh my memory on it), Ninja Storm, and (Super) Samurai. NS because I've discovered how much I like Cam, and (S)S because it's currently on so it's easy to follow. I've finished NS and am all caught up with (S)S, and then developed this idea because I read too much into random trivia facts on the Morphing Grid.

So yeah. This is my first Power Rangers fic, as well as an introduction to an idea I'm hoping to make a small series out of. Enjoy!

Summary: A surprise visit leads to some interesting revelations.

Kindred Spirits - Chapter 1Collapse )

[Chapter 2]
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